kat.

goodbye and thank you.

this will be my last post on tumblr. i have been inspired to be more private and to no longer share my journey.

my saturday

at 11:15am I found myself in a yoga class seeking strength (mentally and physically)
I went home, canceled my date for tonight because all myself was telling me was that it wanted to be alone.
at 3:00 i took an hour bath with my book because i needed support from someone whos “been there”.
at 5:00 i was at a used book store searching for the perfect old, yellowed dictionary that i will eventually cut up. i would get lost in the maze of bookshelves and my mind would get lost and for a second think i was going to turn the corner and find matthew.
the next stop was the grocery to get the ingredients for my pasta with tomatoes, oregano and prescuitto which I made and ate and
at 7:30 I was crawling into bed, done for the day, exaughsted and falling asleep
at 10:00 I woke to be disappointed that it was only 10 and that the night hadnt passed by and brought me sunday.

my night

consisted of
1. taking my neighbor to dinner to thank him for taking care of my cat
2. making i love indiana buttons
3. watching a movie that made me jealous that my love life couldnt be resolved in 136 minutes

repost: when it rains it pours

there are moments where the events in my life lead me to jump up and down and squeal and yell what the heck is going on?! what the heck is going on?! it is just crazy what a day can make, what it brings and sometimes who it brings. and who and who. and then you ask yourself what the heck do i do and you realize you just have to ride this wave of events and people and trust that it will all figure itself out. but still i yell WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON!!!!!?

you got me if you want me.